There once was a kid who had nowhere to go. He had a whole lot of mouth but nothing to show. So he went to streets and started walking around with heat. Hustled on other niggas corners so he was always in some beef. But shorty had potential that kept deeply buried, he was tired of running the streets and making his mom worry. He wanted to be star but he was too scared to mention, he was smartest kid in class but he stayed in detention. He wasn’t all the bad he just needed some attention, couldn’t go see his dad so instead he climbing fences.Every night he would go home and write down his dreams and imagine how life was behind the big screen. Thinking of way that he could grind is way out, all the pain from the past made him want to scream and shout. Before he’d go to sleep at night he’d pray to above, everybody saw trouble but he really needed love.
I believe that we are all afraid and because we are afraid we create personalities as defense mechanism against this world which seems so unpredictable at times.
We never know what will or won’t happen and it causes us to create super hero’s in our minds; who’s jobs are to protect of from the chaos.
In effect, these super hero’s become personalities that we take on often take on to fight anyone or anything perceived to threaten our so called existence.
If this is true, if we can create various personalities based on our fears and perceptions of the world; how can we really say that who we claim to be or what we claim to see is real?
I’ve done some crazy, inexplainable and nonsensical things in the pursuit of love. For the most part, I can honestly say that I don’t regret any of them – ok maybe a few things- because the thought of finding someone who understand you without words, feels you without having to touch you, and loves you unconditionally makes every set back and disappointment worth it. It also makes life worth living.
How delighted I was when I found out that this person I’ve been fantasizing about all my life is my self.